A time of reflection on what I'm doing and what I want to do and what I need to do. What I have done and have been passionate about. And if it is all still true or if. If. Maybe things have changed. Maybe I have change - no, I know I have changed.
I should erase all of this and think these things through and then write up a neatly crafted essay on time and change and desire and finding right mind and right action. And acceptance.
Or I can leave this as a marker that life happens and sometimes desires and needs don't fit neatly into the space we're allowed. And decisions need to be made.
And in this land of "you can have it all" that maybe, just maybe, sometimes it's okay to say, "no, I can't" or "no, I don't want to pay that price and so I will choose." Then choose. At least for now. To acknowledge that people change and opportunities change and life sometimes gives us something new which doesn't fit. And we do have a choice. Not necessarily an easy choice.
This post feels like it is going down the rabbit hole of "but what about X?" (there are so many Xs and look at it, maybe your X and my X intersect and collide so who's half of the X has dominance?), or "do you mean to say that we all can control everything which happens to us no matter what?" (which I don't, but I don't have an answer about when and why and how we may or may not), or what about the other beings with which we regularly interact and impact and am impacted by. Questions. No answers. Thoughts.
photograph from GTD Times